idiots, i don't need you to make things worse for me alright. why can't they ever understand!

18 years, maybe i've been living in my own world such that not even they understand me well.
maybe i've changed, that's why.
BUT, even if i've changed, you should've already noticed it. oh wait, you probably didn't.

this reminds me of a particular conversation about some infamous people in secondary school. it was like, they are suppose to be well known and stuffs, yet i don't really know about them.
yes yes, this further proves how much i was in my own world, living with only things and people i want to be with.
same goes for my life in the college, where i bet less than 10 will probably notice me missing if i ever disappear.


am i that difficult to read?
why can some people read me real well and inside out, yet some can never figure me out.


4 weeks to start, 7 weeks to freedom.