this is me

what would you know.
it's not you with a genius brother, someone who doesn't need to study at all to get straight As. someone who plays the computer the whole day, who doesn't study much, who still manage to get in top schools, who was top in level, who is simply a genius.
the people around you are full of praises for him, being proud of him. yet here i am, in a school no one goes to. i studied! i swear i've studied! but what's the use of that! who looks at that when you don't achieve anything.
probably destiny. he has been the best, the glory of the house. yes, i am jealous of him, envious of him. why is he so good at everything that i can never outshine him? why is he always so outstanding? why can't he let me be in the light once. just once.

you put me in this environment, you gave me this mindset, you gave me this brother, you showed me the importance of success, what can you expect me to think otherwise?
what would you know.

*sobs*