who is beside you now?

it's kind of weird sometimes.
you forgot its presence always when things are so close to you. although one say that one have forgot, it never really did leave the mind. it is there, somewhere, just that one chose not to think about it.

friends are so difficult to have. do you satisfy them at the expense of your own happiness? or do you sacrifice them for yours? to satisfy both worlds is really difficult, but once you've achieved that, you've found a true friend.

i admit, i'm ruining my own life. leaving those who were once close and true to me. but when i want to make amendments, they wouldn't give me a chance anymore. they, i cherished them. i really did.