give me a break

something really crazy happened during flag day yesterday, but i shan't say out what it is. it was so scary that i was really freaked out.

i've been so busy lately, but i don't know what have i finished doing last week. am i working blindly? it seems like the school's assignments are so much that i don't really have time for myself and for the things i want to do. even for my piano, i only played it twice last week. i can foresee a terrible scolding tomorrow.
haven't study for geog at all, haven't finish doing amath (have gave up on that), haven't prepare for chinese orals (yes, i'm so going to not get a distinction), haven't done lots and lots of things.

there's so much work weighing me down, i really want to throw them all away. whenever i try to talk to my parents, they think that i'm finding faults with everything that's around me. when i claim that i want to give up on my studies, i get scolded.
can't they just make me feel more confident of myself and make me feel better? it's like it's impossible to talk to them.
all those who were once there are now gone, and i only have myself to blame.