shoo! leave me alone

they've all gone to grandparent's place. after much persuasion, i'm still reluctant to go there.
you know what? i simply dislike going there.
what's the point of going there when it's not my home at all? just go there and show my face and pretend that i care for everyone? don't expect me to do that. people go and visit someone when they miss the person or wants to show that they care, but i didn't and won't.
i've never liked going there, and for all the past visits, they were only to give them face and not put my parents into a difficult spot.
won't you all just stop bothering me and leave me alone? just throw me here and don't get me there. no matter how much you persuade or convince or force or even trick me there, it's not going to work. i'd rather starve to death than to go there.
yes, i'm having no dinner because they have all gone to have dinner then to grandparent's place.

this is so miserable. anyone felt this way as well? bet not.
to everyone who reads this, i bet you are all living with the people whom you love so much or loves you too. this kind of feeling, i don't expect you to understand. so just leave me alone as well.
sigh.. all i want is... ... forget it, it's not point telling anyone here. come talk to me only if you understand, if not, shoo and get lost.