are we holding on to our life, or other people's?

ahh..! grrr..! arrghh..! *sobs*
so frustrated, don't know over what. is it the exams and stress, or the unreasonable things, or the everything else, or nothing?

life is terrible.
when you're a baby, you simply follow the adults, and do what they do. you can't differentiate the right and wrong, but just listened to what the adults tell you.
when you grow older and is a child, and just when you have your own thinking, you still have to do what the adults tell you to, and can't disobey for fear that they may think that you're being disobedient and punish you.
upon reaching the stage of teenagers, you insist on your own thinking and actions, and parents punish you. you make friends, but have to go along with them, frightened by the thought that they may leave you. you go to school and learn, but you still have to depend on the teachers' mood to decide your day in school.
when you graduate from school and become an adult, you're stressed by the fact that you have to find a suitable job, and have a steady income, also, you must have interest in that job. you try to keep in contact with your schoolmate and friends, but because you're so busy, some say that you've neglected them and forgotten about them. you feel unjust, yet you there's nothing you can do.
when you found a job, you have to obey your employer, and hope that you'll get a promotion soon. you can't have a different opinion from your employer or colleagues, as that might result in a quarrel and ruin your career. you give them opinion you see fit the most, and have to ensure that your opinion is something they're looking for.
when you found your lifelong partner, you have to make him or her happy, and always display your best side. it doesn't matter if it's only a facade, as long as your partner is happy, and will still continue to love you. you do what your partner wants you to do, so that he or she may be happy and satisfied, and will be willing to spend the rest of the life with you. you thought of your friends, some you still keep in contact with and some you've lost them forever. you wonder how they are doing, but you have no courage to call them because it's been so long, and you're afraid of the embarrassment they may result if they've forgotten about you.
when you finally retire, you are relieved by the thought that you don't have to bother about your employer's mood any longer, and is able to carry on with your hobbies. you thought of the fact that you still have a family to carry on, and children are still studying and that you still have to work hard to provide your children with money to study. you are once again stressed up and frustrated with this materialistic life.
when heaven calls for your presence and you depart earth, your mind is still bothered by several things you can't leave aside. your family and children. their welfare. the problems they may cause.

are we holding on to our life, or other people's?